You know you’ve reached a milestone in your life when you get that letter in the mail from AARP. This is when it was real to me, that I had lived more than half of my life. And though I wasn’t quite ready to throw in the towel, it did make me keenly astute to the fact that I had to become more intentional, if I wanted to savor and preserve the youth I have left!
50, isn’t what it used to be these days, more women are having children at this age like Halle Barry, Brigitte Nielsen and Janet Jackson to name a few. They are physically fit and paying attention to how they take care of themselves. Some 50-year-olds don’t look a day over 35 in some cases. And though I am sure I look like I’m over 35, my 30’ish year old children like to flatter me all the time. They are partially bias right? But how grateful I am, not to have any health challenges besides high blood pressure but under control and shameless to say menopause, in which has been easy to cope with.
Though I am of average weight and size, and love the skin I’m in, I still exercise, so that I am physically fit to do the things I desire to do, like fishing, riding a bike, camping, and going for long walks. At this stage in life, mostly everything I do is for me and not for anyone else.
And because, I still have goals, dreams, and purpose still inside of me, I want to be healthy enough to enjoy them for as long as I can. I feel so incredibly blessed and content with where I am in life, although I am striving for God’s complete will to be manifested. I am single,sassy and celibate (6 yrs), and still very much desire to remarry the man God has for me.
The dating scene…so nonexistent and even more so during this pandemic. How do you date in a pandemic? How do you meet someone? I have tried dating apps and sites and it is just sickening at my age. What does age have to do with it? Well I am glad you asked that question, let me enlighten you (smile). The men my age, were like old grandpa’s. I am just too youthful, passionate, and sophisticated for a Grandpa, Right? Plus, I totally believe you can only expect to get what you currently are, although there are exceptions to the rule, if ever there was one. Meaning - in the real world, it’s very unlikely, if I were 300 lbs. overweight to expect to end up with Mr. Olympia! I hope you see my point.
The men that were younger, were either too immature, or they were looking for women of childbearing age, so when they find out how seasoned I am (LOL), they move on. If I were deeply insecure, the rejection would be painful but I am too distracted by purpose to give it more thought than it deserves. Although I do think we all suffer from insecurity to some degree.
In any case, no matter how old I get, I will never stop working on me. It is my desire and prayer to be and become the best version of myself. I am always seeking the Lord on how to increase my value and be more of an asset to the Kingdom of God.
Yours truly,